Disruption and Disorder

I have not been around much here, and it’s causing me a lot of anxiety. My life has been turned upside down, and I don’t even feel comfortable in my own space anymore.

A week ago, we put our house up for sale. Before that, we had to pack things and declutter the house and put our prized belongings into the storage locker for better showings. I have very little of my possessions with me or even around me in my “house”.

My house doesn’t feel like a home anymore. It is distinctly “not me” and it’s very hard to be creative in a space I once considered sacred.

While we are showing our house, my husband and I are also looking for our next “home” which is even more stressful because I really don’t have any clue where we will be. I can’t plan ahead and know exactly the time frame I can settle back into a space again and be myself.

I don’t know how long it will take for a new house to become my home once we find it.

I know these things shouldn’t deter me from my passions, like writing, but it certainly is disrupting it, and I can’t find any semblance of normalcy to get into any sort of creative mood.

I feel like I’m in limbo. I’m hoping the fire and inspiration will come back to me. I’m hoping I can rise above the disorder, the chaos, to find my creative space again.

If anything, I just hope we can find a new home soon.

Stay tuned.


H.K. Rowe

3 thoughts on “Disruption and Disorder

  1. Oh, ack, I can see how that’d be unsettling for you! My home is the place where I feel most comfortable, so to have it change like that would throw me off majorly, too. Will keep my fingers crossed that all that house-hunting goes smoothly for you!

  2. *hugs you tightly* You hang in there, dear. What with the move on my own end, I really see where you’re coming from and yet I don’t have to deal with all those things you mentioned, so I can totally understand why it would feel so unsettling and wrong. Keep holding tight, and I hope things move on swiftly so you can find your bearings again and feel more secure and less anxious. Sending you my best vibes and warmest thoughts ♥

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